Sleep.. what's that ..

I have so many other posts that need to happen BUT I have had some major issues with sleep the last few weeks. UGH !!! It is so bad. We have had a ton going on in our lives (yet another post). I can fall asleep but then wake up around 2-3. It is AWFUL.. Oh believe me that I have popped some sleeping aids but my brain is not shutting off. So for those of you that see on on a daily basis and I look like a zombie. Now you know. Here's hoping for a good nights sleep.

Walker's 6th birthday

My sweet boy turned 6. It makes me sad to think about it. This year I did not win the Mommy of the year for his bday. He didnt have a bday party but except for what we did at home. Ken was out of town because of his Mom's passing and I just didn't feel like it was time for a huge celebration. The kids and I had a great time at home just the 3 of us. Even though it wasn't the same without Ken here.



He did love that I took him to Toys-r- us on his special day and told him pick what you want. That was a first and he loved getting to pick his own gifts. Next year we will have a fabulous party. He could care less that we didn't have a party. I have Mother's guilt for not having one for him.

I love that boy so much

Promise to myself.....

These last few weeks I have had so much going on. I feel like I have been living up at Bledsoe. We are getting geared up for our yearly fundraiser. It is a great thing for the kids school and they actually love it so much. Its has been constant around here. I am so tired at night that I feel like all I do it rush to get the kids to bed. On Friday at Bible Study I was reminded that we all need to slow down and take a few minutes not only for yourself but also to spend some time with your kids. All weekend I have been trying to remind myself that the kids are my first priority. I love them and want them to know that I am here and not one of those Mom's that is rushing/ screaming ALL THE TIME. They are only small once..

My promise to myself is to take a breath and spend quality time with my babies. If something doesn't get done NO ONE is going to die. I need to better prioritize my life..